Thursday, July 2, 2026

What the canal carries - A Tale of Sheikhpur



"And if you feared as they fear, then surely you would have taken the same path they took."

— Al-Nisaa 4:77


“That day I saw Azhar Chacha emptying the canal water as if in a trance, with his eyes closed and yet focused on his work. He looked like a Jinn had possessed him. He paused for a second and looked at me with his eye turned inside out. It was 4.30 AM in the night and I ran as fast as my legs would carry me away” 


The village had been agog with the words of young Irfan as he spat out the words, as if trying hard to cast off an evil spell from his entire body.

Irfan was the younger Son of the Muezzin of the village, Rahim. He was fourteen years old. He had never lied about anything that mattered.

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Sheikhpur sat on the western bank of the Chitroptala, a tributary of the Mahanadi that was wide in the monsoon and a brown patch by March. The village had been there long enough to forget exactly how long, which is the mark of a place that has calcified around its own history. The villagers were mostly farmers growing paddy, potatoes, vegetables and jute. Mother earth was very generous in her bounties and gave rich yield to the crops and the villagers were very much grateful and lived a content and happy life. 

Everyone in Sheikhpur knew the canal. 

It ran through the village like the roots of the banyan tree. In the day it was simply water but at night when the mist engulfed Chitroptala and lay low across the paddies and the lamplight from the houses shimmered on the flowing water in the dark, it became something else; not dark & ominous but also not something you approached unnecessarily.

Azhar had always approached it.

He was the son of Karim and Fatima, who lived in the house near the Sal grove. A grown man who has grown in age but not in accomplishment of men his age – no job, no wife and no ambition. He just sat near the canal and watched the water move without giving any sign that the time was passing. He did and carried out things that others would call odd. He prayed in the field while everyone else offered their prayer in the mosque. To anyone who asked, he replied that Allah can also hear him from the field, which was true and hence nobody argued. He sang to himself in a language that was not Odia and not Bengali and not Udu. When his mother once asked him what he was singing he said he did not know, he was only repeating what he heard.

"From where?" she had demanded.

He looked at the canal and said nothing.

Azhar was an oddball and like other oddballs, the village did not know what to do with him. He was harmless but that knowledge carried a certain degree of unease in the way the knowledge of a deep well carries unease even in someone who has no intention of falling in. 

Irfan’s closeness to Azhar was another story in itself. As an infant & child, Irfan was very mischievous. Even when he was unable to walk and could barely crawl, he will manage to drag himself to the edge of the bed and would land headfirst, all the time. This brought intense agony and concern on the part of his mother, Hazra Bi, who was concerned with such incidents on one hand while dreading the anger of her husband on the other.

One day, while she was busy in between washing dish and cooking for Rahim, she completely forgot about the baby. The elder one was away in school and this fact slipped her mind. 

“Hai Allah” Shouted someone even as she heard a thud from the outside. She rushed to see what could have happened.

There below the tall verandah was standing Azhar, holding on to the Baby in one hand while dusting off the dirt from his body. 

“It’s all Allah’s Fazal that Azhar came timely to catch the baby as he was almost dropping off from the verandah” Observed one passerby.

“Women now a days, I tell you” Said the other. “I say, when you don’t have the quality to become mother, then why do you bring innocent kids to this world” He Said disdainfully even as Hazra Bi came out. 

“Tauba, tauba, humein kya” They left disdainfully seeing Hazra Bi come out.

Since that day Azhar became close to the kid as someone who knew him since a longtime and shared some kind of kinship with him, which was inexplicable to others and incoherent to many.

To Irfan, Azhar became Azhar Chacha – the source of many adventure, wonderment and amazing discoveries. Both of them became inseparable as from dawn and seen in every nook and corner of the village; be it the chasing of wild butterflies or the plucking of mangoes from others mango orchard or catching fish from the small Nullas which emanated from the large canal of the village. In him, Azhar found escape from the many taunts and sarcasm of his parents & family members. In Azhar, Irfan found a play partner who was fun, exciting and adventurous; adding colors to his otherwise drab childhood. With a Muezzin father who always insisted on following Islamic rituals, Irfan craved a carefree world with full freedom – something that Azhar provided in abundance.

“What would you do when you grow up” Asked Azhar one day as they were resting against the mango tree one summer afternoon after having a bellyful of the sweet mangoes. 

“I want to be like you, Azhar Chacha” Said a 6 years old Irfan, beaming. 

Azhar’s face fell. He looked up to the young & innocent child and did not know how to explain it to him.

That the world measures the worth of a person by how much he is able to earn, by how useful he makes himself as per the criteria set by the society, of how smartly he speaks and impresses people and how cunning he can be in the affairs of the world where he can amass greater wealth at the cost of others. And how the world also derides someone who choose to not take the path, stay honest, enjoy the bounty of Allah and just look forward to make others and himself happy in the process.

Such is the way of the world and such is its treatment towards people.

To Irfan, he said this simply “study and become a big man like the Sahib at the collectorate so that you can make Azhar Chacha proud”.

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Hazra Bi hurried to leave for home as it was really getting dark. 

She had come to meet one of the newly wed bride who hailed from a nearby village in Midnapur. Coming from Midnapur herself, she found the village of Sheikhpur to be boring, dull and lacking life. Although, she was always grateful to Allah Almighty for giving a good husband like Rahim, she could not bear the dreary hours that ensued once Rahim left for the mosque in the morning. The women in the neighborhood were all known to each other for generations and some of them were childhood friends. Hence there existed a coterie of housewives who could not bear to let anyone in, let alone Hazra Bi, who was considered as an outsider.

The interaction with the new bride was invigorating, refreshing and exactly what Hazra Bi’s soul needed at that point in time. The girl narrated story from their village, the local village festival and the fair, which Hazra Bi also knew as a child. How it had become fun and more exciting than what was there in the yesteryears. Time flew in the blink of the eye and before she knew, it was already pitch dark outside. The only feasible route to her home passed through the Kabristaan. The longer route passed through the dense mango orchard which was a much time consuming & riskier proposition. 

Now how does she go to her home? 

What strange thing may be waiting to pounce on her on the way? 

She remembered the many scary story of Jinn & Jinnaat from the village folk. Of apparitions that they have seen in the night at the Kabristaan and how some of them are bloodthirsty and while others craving for the company of women as they had died unmarried. The Kabristaan was a menacing place which treasured in its chest terrors and unspeakable horror which was waiting to be unleashed to someone who may be unfortunate to venture near them in the night.

Hazra Bi panicked. 

In her panic, she requested the new girl to accompany her with a lantern and give her company in crossing the Kabristaan. The good-natured girl was willing but was sternly dissuaded by her elder Sister-in-Law who was a premium member of the neighborhood housewife club. 

Reluctantly, with much trepidation and absolute mortification, Hazra Bi started on her journey back to her home. 

She went past the row of Sal tree and crossed the cluster of Neem tree and came to the boundary of the Kabristaan. A breach has been made in the boundary wall of the Kabristaan which served as an entry point for many of the passerby to take a shortcut rather than the long detour through the mango orchard.

Hazra Bi stood at the boundary wall, staring at the large hole in the wall which will let her in, trying to make a decision whether to go in or not. She thought about her children who she had left with the neighbour and of Rahim returning from mosque as it was past Isha time and how upset he will be not to see her and the kids alone.

She decided to move forward. She entered the hole and let the darkness swallow the rest of her being in to the world of the Kabristaan, its Jinn & Jinnats.

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She slowly started to find her way amongst the graves to what happened to be a beaten path by the day time. 

She knew this place. She had attended burials here and read Fatiha for the Magfirat of those who have passed away. 

However, in the dark, she was unable to see the way clearly and as such stumbled many times and fell amongst the nettle bush, bruising herself with nettle rash.

She got up, dusted & gathered herself and continued in her journey. That’s when she heard the voice.

It was not like anything she has heard before. It was a deeply baritone voice which was unusually grave and yet had the tremble of someone who seemed to be crying. 

“Allahu Akbar” 

Hazra Bi turned as the voice was coming from the mosque at the edge of the Kabristaan. She egged on to have a closer look from the faint light of the lamp which was almost reaching its end.

There in the faint flame of the lamp, Hazra Bi saw clearly as the day light, Azhar and a full line of apparitions who were following him in a namaz led by him.

She was about to flee.

That’s when she heard Azhar.

“Hazra Bi, why do you roam the night running away from your responsibilities which clings to you like the dead cling to the living? It is I who gets blamed for being irresponsible but I think you are the one who is more irresponsible than I can ever be”. 

Hazra Bi was about to run when Azhar looked up from in between the Namaz, in between the sentence.

Hazra Bi froze. Her breath caught in her throat.

He was looking at her.

His eyes were wrong. 

Not rolled back but something else. His eyes were present and conscious and entirely directed at her, but the gaze was not that of a man. It was the gaze of something which knew how to use a man's eyes in the way you learn to use a tool you did not make: adequately, but with a slight mismatch that the thing that made the tool would immediately notice. 

He gnashed his teeth and ran towards her.

Hazra Bi ran like a frightened deer.

She ran fast, stumbling over stones, falling in to the dirt but never daring to stop. She ran as far as her legs would carry her and did not look back or stop till she reached and collapsed near the ancient Banyan tree Infront of her house.

And in the yellow circle of the lantern on her verandah, she saw Azhar. Playing with her kids.

Her innocent and sweet kids even as they laughed at his jokes. Azhar’s teeth flashed momentarily in the yellow light of the lantern and Hazra Bi could swear, he looked at her with the deviousness of the devil himself waiting to swallow her entire family whole. 

She felt her blood turn to ice. 

But in that weak moment, something in her did not allow her to give up. Mother’s Instinct. She allowed her to gather herself and collect enough strength to charge towards Azhar with the ferociousness of a lioness out to protect her cub.

She slammed her head straight in to the chest of Azhar even as the children recoiled back in confusion. 

Azhar landed with a loud thud and an intense pain his chest which felt like as if a boulder has been driven in to him again & again to crush him under its weight. 

There were disbelief, anger and confusion in Azhar’s expression.

“What did I do?” He said exasperated. “Is this how you reward someone for looking after your children?” 

By then, Hazra Bi had gotten hold of the Kitchen Knife and have slowly transformed in to the very incarnation of Goddess Kali, in the light of the flickering lantern.

“Run you Devil, run for your life. Or else I will slice you like the Bakra of Bakrid” growled Hazra Bi like a wounded lioness. “Don’t you dare to come anywhere my children and my family”. 

Azhar fled the scene even as Hazra Bi gathered her sons and clutched them close to her chest.

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By the next morning the story was a story in making itself.

By the time it passed through three mouths, the inexplicable thing in the story had a name. By the time it had passed through ten, the name had a personality, a history, a motive. By the time it passed through thirty, the village is no longer discussing what Hazra Bi saw. It was discussing what was their interpretation of what they think she saw.

As evening descended, an Ojha was summoned from a distant village – an imposing man with ash smeared across his forehead and eyes that burned like hot coal. 

Inside Rahim’s courtyard, Hazra Bi sat hunched against the wall, her hair hanging over her face like a funeral Kaffan. 

The Ojha lit a bundle of bitter herbs. Thick black smoke rose through the courtyard, carrying a stench which was so foul that it made the villagers gag. He forced the fumes toward Hazra Bi’s face. 

“Why do you come here to torment me?” The voice crawled out of her throat like something rotten which was dragged from a grave and felt coarse, guttural and rattling like loose tin in a storm. 

“Why are you troubling this good soul. She has done nothing against you but yet you choose to torture her” Said the Ojha, raising his voice to intimidate and assume a commanding position above the evil spirt.

“It’s all her fault. Why did she pass by my place of rest & disturbed me?” Continued the voice, evil, menacing and chillingly frightening. The whole village was gathered outside. 

The Ojha got up, straightened his back and looked intently at the evil spirit and spat on the ground.

“You think you will show your acrobatics and torment this innocent girl & I will sit around watching” Roared the Ojha.

Hazra Bi smiled and then gave out a loud laugh exposing her yellow teeth and bloody eyes. The laugh was so startling that it left some of the villagers scurrying for cover.

“I have seen many louts & vagabonds like you. Your kind does not frighten me. I will come and go wherever I want & as I please.” Said Hazra Bi or whoever was inside her, mirthfully, disdainfully.

This infuriated the Ojha to no end. He took out his broom stick, smeared with the holy ashes of the remains of holy man from the bank of the Ganges and had the incredible power to dispel any evil from anywhere.

After the 5th strike of the broom, everyone could hear a voice, that of a little girl, crying.

“Don’t hit me, please. I will do as you say and I will leave her.” It pleaded in whimpering voice. 

“So, leave her now. Off you go to wherever that you had come” Said the Ojha, now looking ferocious with the ashes from the broom all over him and his hair and beard flying in all directions – a living incarnation of the Mahakaal indeed.

With the last swooping hit, the Ojha jumped and literally stood over Hazra Bi. 

Hazra Bi began convulsing violently.

Her body arched unnaturally backward and a piercing shriek tore through the night; a shriek sharp enough for several villagers to cover their ears and fall to their knee in supplication.

She fainted & fell to the ground.

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Inside the sleep, she was neither here nor there. She was in the Kabristaan again, and again, and the light in the old mosque, and Azhar was always at its centre, and she could never get close enough to see clearly what stood behind him in the rows.

On the third day, she heard Irfan crying.

“Ammi, Ammi, please eat something”. Said Irfan. Rahim and the boys had been worried sick seeing Hazra Bi’s condition. However, they just followed what the Ojha had said. She passed in and out of the delirium and was fed the jadi butti given by the Ojha. The Ojha had said that she will recover by the 3rd day but then Hazra Bi showed no sign of it. 

“It’s all because of me. Since I am close to Azhar Bhai, he had come to our house to play with us. If he didn't come to our house, Ammi wouldn't—"” wailed Irfan. 

Something stirred within Hazra Bi. 

It woke up the same maternal instinct she had shown when fighting off Azhar. She dragged herself from within and willed herself to open her eyes to comfort her child. She pulled Irfan close to her chest and comforted him in a way she did when he was a child. She cried softly and sobbed heavily as she drew her two sons closer to her and let her motherly love soak them to the core.

Rahim looked lovingly at his beautiful family, forever grateful to Allah for his bounty and mercy for bringing Hazra Bi back to her senses and hoped & prayed that normalcy will soon return to his home. 

He was vexed too and that vexation was much beyond the family issue and bordered on his job.

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And it had to do with Barkat Sahib, the Imam of the mosque and his boss.

 Barkat Sahib had been, once, a man of genuine learning. He was a bright scholar who passed out of the Madrasa with flying colors. His understanding of Fiqh was excellent, his recitation was beautiful, his knowledge of hadith was wide.

There were many local mosques vying to take him up as their Imam to lead the congregation. He had chosen the Ajmalpura mosque as he found the people to be god fearing, faint hearted and willing to listen to an authority figure. This suited him very well as he always wanted to be the best and have people fawn over him for his scholarly knowledge & superiority. He distributed charms, amulets & Tabizs in gay abundance as the flock gathered to him for guidance, healing and liberation. 

What made things difficult for him was Hussain Sahib who took over as the Chairman of the Mosque Committee. Hussain Sahib was a man of letter and science. He retired as the principal of the local Midnapur Govt. College. To him the machination & detailed set up that the Imam was doing appeared bogus, a scheme in self-aggrandization and an ego trip. Things came to a point when Barkat Sahib was caught mid-way in to an exorcism, where extreme torture was playing out in plain sight in the mosque quadrangle. Hussain Sahib was furious and immediately expelled him from the position & warned him not to be seen anywhere closer to the mosque or the community. This was done very publicly and without any ceremony and what had broken for Barkat Sahib was not his career but his image as a respectable Imam. He was desperate to make a comeback and was looking for an answer to his bruised ego.

Sheikhpur had been an answer. 

A village community which was deep in its superstitions and craving the authority of a man who could interpret the invisible world. This was a field in which Barkat Sahib had mastery and a gift which had no competition. He had planted himself carefully by issuing his charms, his amulets, conducted his jhaar-phunks and made himself indispensable to enough families so that his position felt permanent. He had built a congregation that believed what he told it to believe.

And now his own Muezzin's wife had been possessed by a Jinn, and the family had called an Ojha.

Not him.

Not the Imam.

An Ojha who is a Hindu practitioner. A man with ash & tilak on his forehead.

He sat in his room the evening after, not speak to his wife and did not eat his dinner and did not pray the Isha prayer on time, which he had not missed in twenty years. He sat and he felt his well cultivated prestige and in a large way the fear in the community to his authority, quietly slipping away. What he felt was not grief, nor anger but the chilling cold clarity of a man who has decided that an example must be set.

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The following Friday he climbed the mimbar. 

“When we think of Allah and his pre-ordained righteous path” he began, his voice at its richest, most certain and the voice of a man who has rehearsed this speech in the privacy of his own chest for a week. “we must understand that this path is narrow, meant only for the righteous and can only be attained by those who have the right guide by their side to guide them through it. That’s where the role of the Imam comes in”. 

He paused. 

He had been smarting from the indignity inflicted by Rahim & his family. Now to add insult to injury, his Son has seen the devil but yet the same person is not even approached him for a solution. Instead, he’s being counseled by Nasir Sahib, whose Son works as the ward boy in the big hospital in Cuttack, that this is a mental condition and that his son can arrange for consultations with a Angrezi Dawai Wala Doctor who could treat him and make him well.

“As if the Devil himself could be cured by the Angrezi Medicine!” Barkat Sahib had laughed to himself.

“But some people think that they are above Allah and His way of life and that they don’t need an Imam in their life.” Continued Barkat Sahib. “Nauzobillah.” He roared. “That the wisdom of the mosque is less than the wisdom of a Hindu witch-man with ash on his face. These are the types of people whom the Satan are more prone to capture and hold captive & for them is the way of hell” He said now fully charged up and going on full blast.  

“However, as a Jamaat & a congregation we should not be bothered by these things as long as our faith is pure. But what such disobedience does to your faith & Imaan is that it casts an ugly shadow on you & the family. This is so as you have accepted this evil way of life to fester in your community without any objection and have forsaken the ways of Allah. Allah Paak will make you accountable for treading this evil path and fry you in boiling oils in large cauldron on Yom -e- Qayamat. But I will have none of it.” His voice had dropped, which was more frightening than when it was raised. "This is kufr. This is the door through which the Shaitan walks into a family's heart and makes his home there." 

“Hence, I have come here to tell you that from now on I have decided not be your Imam anymore.” Barkat said, his voice breaking artfully on the word decided. 

“I will no longer be part of the devilry and the naked dance of Satan that you are part of and hence this will be my last Juma with you as Imam” He concluded with a tone of finality as he sat down for the customary pause before the Khutba Saaniya after the Friday sermon. He tried to look and gauge people’s reaction from the corner of his eye.

What he saw pleased him very much. Many of the people were agitated and were talking to each other animatedly.

The arrow had found its mark. Now let the games begin.

He stood up innocently, completed his Khutba Saaniya and led the congregation for the Friday prayer. 

After the closure of the Friday prayer, he ensured that he forced few drops of tears from his eye and turned to leave the crowd even as wiping his eyes.

“Aap ko hum Jaane nahin denge” Said a chunk of the crowd which gathered around him and hugged him so tight that it was difficult for him to breath.

“Tell us what we have to do to amend our mistakes and we will do as you say” Thundered the crowd which resembled like a mob now.

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Barkat Sahib’s golden moment had come. 

The investments that he had made in keeping the community dogmatic, full of blind believes and a complete blind faith in him, has started earning rich dividends. 

Religion, which our early fathers of Independent India realized, is a matter of faith and hence a very personal feeling & practice for every individual. Mixing religion, fanaticism and blind faith with power, influence and governance, they had warned, will always have an adverse & detrimental effect if one was to choose riding the wave. 

However, Barkat Sahib, blinded by his personal gain & to satisfy his large ego, decided to ride the wave.

So, the plan was hatched. The strongmen identified. The hour set and the stage was prepared to taken down & eradicate evil from the face of Sheikhpur.

Outside, the sky was entirely clear. Not a cloud. Not a sign. Just the flat blue certainty of an afternoon in late October.

The men of Sheikhpur looked at one another.

Then they nodded.

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Rahim’s family slept peacefully with the moon on top and the night thick like a dark blanket. The family breathed deeply & sonorously, oblivious of the happenings of outside.

Barkat Sahib was leading the mob. 

The mob was wild, angry and boiling over trying to correct a mistake that they had done in their ignorance.

They broke through Rahim’s door. 

The sound and melee woke up the family. Startled and confused to what was happening, they offered very little resistance to the mob’s might. Rahim was easily overpowered. Hazra Bi and Irfan were tied as they were the evil incarnate. 

They were taken to the mosque.

The walk through the village is the only thing Hazra Bi would remember longest, in the years to come. The lanterns in the houses they passed, the inquisitive faces at the windows of women mostly, the wives and daughters of the men who were walking around her, watching without expression. 

The coldness, the indifference and if someone looked closely, hatred. 

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The whole village had gathered in the mosque. Those who came early and got a place, were inside the mosque courtyard. Others climbed up on the roof of nearby houses and on the boundary wall of the mosque to see what is yet to unfold.

Barkat Sahib like a ringmaster took the centre stage. At the centre of the courtyard, sat on the ground Hazra Bi & Irfan. 

Confused, bewildered and not having a clue of what was happening around them.

“These two infidels have sinned and wronged their soul. As a result, the devil has taken over them. They have also transgressed in not taking the help of the Imam but took help of a Kafir. What do you think we should do with them” Roared Barkat Sahib.

“Beat them” said one.

“beat the living daylight out of them” said the other.

“make an example of them,” said another.

The crowd roared as if they were in a colosseum watching the bloody sport of the gladiators with glee.

Barkat Sahib came forward with a Zanjeer-Zani. It was a cluster of chains attached to a handle, which often have small knives or blades tied to the ends. It was used by mourners during the Tazia festival to strike their backs while chanting & mourning the passing away of Hussain & Hassan, the Grandson of the Prophet (PBUH). 

Barkat Sahib lifted the Zanjeer Zani and brought it will all might on the mother & son.

The crowd gasped.

The tiny knives & blades stuck at lightning speed on the back of Hazra Bi and Irfan.

Piteous cry forced out of the mouth of both the mother & the son and filled the ground & the sky with heart rendering plea.

Unabashed and untouched, Barkat again lifted the Zanjeer Zani and brought it down with all his might.

“Oof, gah”, sharp grunts could be heard above the crowd’s noise as the mother & son tried to protect each other amidst the inhuman onslaught.

The ground around was smeared with blood as if it was Holi. Holi smearing did not have the luster & shine that human blood had.

Especially the blood of human who is poor, lacks a voice and agency.

Barkat went on in his onslaught without a let up.

“You think you are the only wise & holy person here who can do as he wishes” The voice was raspy & grating, shards of glass sliding across sandpaper.

The crowd suddenly went silent.

Hazra Bi looked up as she spoke, from where she was sitting. 

Suddenly the sun went behind a dark cloud and what was a bright & sunny day suddenly turned in to a dark and ominous timeless zone. Birds flew off the branches in large numbers loudly chirping, cawing and squawking even as domestic animals looked confused and bewildered. Ther was a dust storm which arose amidst this confusion. Visibility greatly reduced, with the villagers now a shifting shadow in the veil of the sand particle.

“If you dare to, untie me first and then let me show you what I am capable of and what is your worth” Said the voice, now shrill & high pitched, rupturing the unnatural silence that had descended. 

Beyond the veil of dust, Rahim saw his wife look up, her face bloodied from the Zanjeer and hair disheveled. she looked up to Barkat and gave him a devious smile exposing her bloodied teeth.

She spat the blood out.

“Arrey Karna Namard, Mard ka bacha hai to kholna haath. Phir mein dikhati hun main kaun hun”. Hazra Bi continued now her voice getting in to guttural & terrifying pitch.

For a moment Barkat was taken aback. 

Though he had handled many such cases in the past he was taken aback by the resistance and the comeback by this entity. 

However, he was now infuriated as this Randi called him Namard and challenged his masculinity. 

Swoop, swash.

Down came the Zanjeer and even before it could strike, he felt a sharp punch near his rib cage which threw him off as if he was hit by a 1000-volt electric shock.

“Don’t you ever dare to touch them” Roared a voice with a booming majesticity which was unheard of in Sheikhpur before.

As Barkat lied writhing in pain, Hussain Sahib towered above him like a colossus and pinned his right hand with his foot even as he was trying to get up.

Keeping one eye on Barkat, he turned to the crowd.

“what has come over you guys. You are all followers of Islam and believe in Allah & the prophet. Where have you read or heard that Islam allows for such public torture & shame to take place. This is Gunah -e- Azim and whoever partake of this shall be dealt most severely in Yom-e- Qayamat and go to hell” Hussian Sahib’s voice boomed as the crowd cast away their eyes from meeting his.

“And as for this fellow, he is a useless and good for nothing guy who is only concerned about his ego and blind beliefs and want to run a parallel religion based on Biddat (making unlawful changes). I had dealt with him in Ajmalpura and drove him away because of his such misdeeds. I had come visiting my daughter & just reached today and that’s when I heard about all this tamasha that this man had created and came right away” Said Hussain Sahib, now breathless with white rage and seething anger at Barkat.

By then the police had arrived along with an ambulance. Barkat was arrested, taken in to police custody and bundled in to the police jeep. The ambulance took Hazra Bi & Irfan for treatment.

“We live in the modern world and a world which is driven by science & evidence. There is nothing like spirits, witch or demons, as one may think. What you see as demonic or Satanic activity is due to mental conditions and a manifestation of past events & incidents which may not have been pleasant. To take this behaviour as supernatural and ghost phenomenon is what encourages lumpen elements like Barkat to exploit the situation and rule over you”. Husaain Sahib paused. 

By this time, the crowd was properly chastised and realized their foolishness & naivety. Many had gathered to see the fun and the real time action of what will unfold – the promise of excitement & adrenalin rush which had brought them to the scene. Many went to the ambulance where the first aid of Hazra Bi & her Son was taking place and enquired after her health.

From the open door of the ambulance, beyond the veil of dust & crowd and the melee in between, stood Hussain Sahib, like an angel sent by Allah to save her and her son. 

Hazra Bi looked up and for a brief moment their gaze met and both of them nodded. 

A man who was a tired crusader against the blind beliefs in the society and a woman who was a mother and had to do whatever it took to protect and save her children, each time and every time.

With tears rolling down her cheeks, she lifted her hand, folded it in gratitude, supplication & eternal gratefulness. 

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Nobody could find Azhar.

This was not unusual as he had always been difficult to locate when the village was looking for him. However, in the days after the mosque courtyard incident, his absence took on a different character. People walked past the house near the Sal grove and saw Karim and Fatima moving behind the windows and did not go in, because they did not know what they would say, or what they feared to be told.

Imran, the elder one, went looking alone, on the third day.

He found him at the canal.

This was not surprising. The canal was where Azhar always went when he needed to be alone. He was sitting at its bank with his feet in the water and his eyes open, watching the surface move.

He looked up when Imran sat down beside him.

"You're all right," Azhar asked.

"Ammi and Irfan are better now." Imran paused. "What were you doing at the canal that night? The night Irfan saw you."

Azhar looked at the water for a while.

"I was emptying it," he said.

"Emptying it of what?"

"Of what's in it." He looked at Imran. "Of the clay & dirt which accumulates and finally chokes it if you don’t clean and move it on."

Imran looked at the canal. The brown water moved in its old way toward the river.

"Did you go to the old mosque that night?" he asked. "Were you leading prayer?"

Azhar's expression did not change.

"I pray where I pray," he said.

"Were your eyes wrong? Irfan said—"

"Irfan is fourteen," Azhar said gently. "And it was 4:30 in the morning and very dark. What a boy sees at 4:30 in the morning in the dark is not always real."

He said this with a quiet certainty, in a way that Imran could find no logical gap in it. It was either the truth or the most complete version of an untruth he had ever encountered, and he could not tell which was what.

"People think you're—" Imran started.

"People think many things," Azhar said. "They have always been like that" He took his feet out of the water. He stood and dried them carefully on the grass. "How is your mother?"

"She's all right," Imran said. "She's all right, but she won't go near the—" He stopped. "She won't cross the Kabristaan anymore. Even in the day."

Azhar was quiet for a moment.

"She is right not to," he said softly. "Some places should be treated with respect."

He walked away along the canal bank, and Imran watched him go.

And the canal moved on toward the Chitroptala, carrying everything given to it, as it has always done. Unhurried, unremarkable, carrying the water & something more, something ancient than water, all the way to the river, and from the river to the sea, and from the sea to wherever it is that such things finally go to rest...


Wednesday, May 20, 2026

The Moonlight Hides














Jochona luchana dura nila gagane

Emana manena eyi madhu lagane —

(The moonlight hides in the distant blue sky,

yet the heart refuses to be still in this intoxicating moment.)

I

“I will wait for you to come and not leave this place for eternity till you come”. Was the parting shot of Divyankit to Archana as she hurriedly crossed the road to catch the already moving town bus.

She had paused in the middle of the road, between the here and infinity, and given him a smile that was gentle, softer and innocent – much like Archana.

He did not know at that moment that it would take his entire life time trying to piece together the smile in his memory. The unique tilt of her head, the smile that starts slowly and then suddenly widens on the way even as it lingers on for a while. He would carry it with him and hold it against every darkness that followed.

That was the last time he saw her whole.

II

It was the end of June and monsoon arrived in the city of Bhubaneswar like a memory which was sudden, overwhelming and impossible to ignore.

For Divyankit, a rustic fellow from the villages of the rural Balasore, Utkal University and the city of Bhubaneswar was a dream come true.

The summer of 1969 was special. It was the year that man had walked on the moon. It was a message which declared proudly that distance will never be an issue for mankind and that ordinary men were no longer required to stay in the places they were born.

Coming from humble rural farming background, Divyankit’s father, Prafulla Babu had a dream – the dream of seeing his son become a magistrate. This dream slowly germinated the day he went to the collectorate on some work and witnessed the elaborate length that the people went through to organize themselves around the collector. He was particularly enamored by the deference, the ceremony and the silence that followed wherever the collector went. That day he realized the power of this position and swore that his son would one day become a collector.

Divyankit has been a good student from his childhood. After standing first in his district in the matric examination, he studied plus two science in the local Fakir Mohan College at Balasore. An outstanding student, suddenly Divyankit found Science was not his cup of tea. The endless theorizing of Physics, the causticness of Chemistry and the gory starkness of Biology turned him away from the temple of Science.

While Science bored him, literature inflamed him and books seduced him.

He had always been drawn to the rich history of Orissa and the amazing contribution of Oriya literature which breathed life in to it. In the haunting melody of “Boita Bandana” he could almost see the Sadhabanis standing at the shore, sending their husbands across uncertain seas to distant lands like Java, Sumatra, and Bali. Every note was woven together by hope, longing and courage. The songs of Raja and Nuakhai festival still reverberating in the writings of fakir Mohan Senatpati and the devotion to Lord Jagannath very much visible in the writings of poets like Sarala Das & Jagannath Das.

In to this world Divyankit wanted to melt away and discover his own identity.

Hence, despite the reluctance and misgivings of Prafulla Babu, who thought by only studying Science can one become a civil servant, Divyankit enrolled in the Bachelors of Arts for his graduation. He convinced his father that only graduation is needed to become and IAS; irrespective of the stream.

The wheels of time rolled on and in three years’ time Divyankit passed hi B.A examination with distinction and the rarest achievement of being a topper & gold medalist of the college. Everyone was elated but the elation with a deep-seated conviction of what lay ahead was only seen in the eyes of Prafulla Babu & Divyankit.

To reach the most cherished summit – Divyankit Das, IAS.

III

In the late 60s and 70s of Orissa, to become a civil servant was a matter of great pride. The position was coveted not for the salary but the perks and powers that came with it. The ostentatious and sometimes the pretentious display of officialdom, servility and a penchant for cowering before such figure gave it a saintly halo to what was otherwise a glorified clerical job which was a hangover and a sad carryover of our colonial past. Anyways, with the social norm set, normalized and nay glorified, the race for the post almost became a cradle to grave story depending on which part of the age spectrum you are looking at it from. Those days, many young IAS officers were from the Orissa cadre and a prominent role was played by the prestigious Utkal University where many of the reputed educationist and professors guided and mentored young men and women to help crack the UPSC Examination.

So, it was decided that Divyankit would go to Bhubaneswar and study in Utkal University.

Getting an admission was very easy for Divyankit as being the gold medalist, the university welcomed him with both hands and to top it off, his education and other expenses was completely free of cost from the scholarship he received from the state government.

IV

The young and still evolving capital of Bhubaneswar was a thing of wonderment and enigma for most of the Oriya people. It has been just designated as the state capital 2 decades ago and was slowly figuring out its own identity. With government building and residential colony coming up alongside history of yesteryears in Lingaraj, Rajarani and Kedargouri temple along with myriad others; it looked like a modern city which was jostling with history to make a mark for itself.

Divyankit arrived at Bhubaneswar, one hot and humid evening of May, with lots of dreams, aspirations and excitement. He was dropped near the University gate and had to walk nearly 3 Km to reach his hostel. Completely tired, he immediately slipped in to a deep sleep.

He dreamt that he is back in the village and had met his friends who were very happy to see him. Off they went to the village pond which was thickly nestled around by large mango trees overarching the water body bearing the sweetest mangoes. He felt suddenly happy and alive to be back in his village. They ran and climbed on the mango tree and the tradition was that they will pluck the most juicy, ripe and tasty mango that they can lay their hands on and then drop it to the pond. Followed by this, they will jump in to the pond, all at once to collect their bounties. As Divyankit was plucking mango, he heard someone creeping behind him. Thinking that one of his friends is making a mischief and creating a prank, he swung around to push him out.

Behind him was a wild animal which was gnashing its teeth which shone through the darkness, menacingly.

“Bou lo… Marigali” (Oh My mother, I am going to die), cried Divyankit and fell in to the water. He heard all his friends laughing and giggling.

Divyankit woke up with a start.

He found that he has fallen off the cot and was dripping wet with a group of boys all staring and laughing at him from above.

“Looks like a village simpleton” said one. “Poor guy, must be a fool to come to Bhubaneswar” jeered another.

“Get up and show some respect to seniors”. Said one of them curtly, looking like their leader.

He was angry, sullen and really bewildered to get such a ‘welcome’ to the Temple city of Bhubaneswar.

“Why did you pour water all over me”? Growled Divyankit to the team leader.

“Manoj Bhaina, he’s showing his attitude to you. Show him his place” exhorted the pack of jackals to their leader, egging him on.

“Oh, our dear brother is angry with us… Sorry bro, please forgive us our mistake” Manoj bent down in mock supplication inviting copious amount of laughter from his gang.

Divyankit looked at him with cold derision.

“What? Are you angry with me? Will you hit me now? I am so afffraidd” Said the team leader mockingly while playfully slapping Divyankit, somewhat a little hard. This infuriated Divyankit to no end and the next moment the full blow of his fist landed squarely on the chin of the bully.

Thud!

Manoj hit the side of the table and landed hard on the ground.

He was bleeding and if one looked closely, may be missing a tooth. This sudden escalation was too much to handle for the group as they had a reputation which was feared and no one had dared challenge or stand up to them which gave them a lot of thrill.

Not having an appropriate answer to Divyankit’s rebuttal, the team leader and his group crawled out of the room – as silently as they had come in.

The next day, Divyankit had become the hero of the campus even without attending a single class. The tale of his courage and strength had travelled far and wide. He was literally mobbed and gheraoed to get a first-hand account of his heroics. It seemed the Bully, Manoj, was a notorious character and was a known mischief maker in the campus. Many were thankful to Divyankit for showing the bully his place. He was a rage amongst the girls too, having achieved his cult status, they started comparing him with Rajesh Khanna given his long hair and fair looks. Divyankit didn’t mind the attention and was basking in his new found celebratory status.

That’s when he met Archana.

V

It was an overcast afternoon and a Sunday. Most of the hostelers had gone out for a movie dekko of ‘Aradhana’ which was slowly achieving cult status. Divyankit politely refused, out of no interest in movies and also the fact that he treasured his post lunch siesta with the fidelity of a man who understood that the mind, like the earth, needed fallow time. He woke up around 4 pm. Alone, he decided to visit one of the magazine shops just outside the campus. At the shop he browsed few magazines and bought the latest edition of Illustrated Weekly of India.

And then suddenly the downpour started, quite unexpectedly and surreptitiously. People pressed in under the narrow awning, shoulders touching, umbrellas dripping. Divyankit waited, holding his magazine, watching the street turn into a moving skin of water.

That’s when he saw her.

Coming out of the magazine store, her kohl lined eyes eagerly looked hither & thither furtively, as if searching for someone. She was wearing a simple, light lemon green colour salwar suit the color of new rice shoots, simple and unadorned, and this simplicity was what first struck him. The absence of effort, and how beauty had arranged itself within it regardless. She was shy and demur but yet appeared confident and poised, a fine balance between the traditional and the modern. She looked beautiful and yet uninviting, serene and yet chaotic, silently eloquent and yet non verbose.

She was the epitome of paradoxes and contrast, Divyankit concluded.

While lost in his thought, he did not realize that the rickshaw he had hailed has been waiting for sometimes.

“Babu, Babu, will you go or should I leave”. Said the Rickshaw Wallah, now visibly impatient and very wet.

“Bhaina, please wait. I will go” Said a voice which was so sweet and mellifluous that Divyankit seemed to melt in to it.

He felt the raindrops reverberating and echoing that voice multifold which descended unto him in thousands and million tiny drops, melting his soul and driving him to insanity even as his entire being started to wither away and flow along with the rainwater – to eternity, to its source, its creator, and if one was so lucky, to the beloved.

That evening, Divyankit walked in a daze, all of 3 Km to his hostel, even as people stared at him and mistook him for a madman. The Illustrated Weekly of India started to slowly soak and disintegrate piece by piece even As Divyankit continued his walk in a trance. “What was that? What did I just witness? Can it be all true or am I day dreaming? Who is that goddess who appeared suddenly in my life and disappeared as soon? Where would I find her or see her again” Thought Divyankit, his mind in a tizzy and brain taking leave of his senses. He did not realize that he had reached his hostel and that the guard was asking him to come in.

The next day, Divyankit had severe cold and fever due to which he was unable to attend his classes. His hostel mates took care of him even as he slipped in and out of long stupor and deliriousness due to high temperature. In this state also, he was still inside that trance and the mad dance of thoughts that were taking place in his head. Completely mesmerized and bewitched from the brief encounter with the girl, he was helpless - Cupid had hit hard.

VI

The next day, he rushed to his class as he did not want to miss out more on his study.

“Could you please pass on the copy to me”? Again, that mellifluous voice and the sweetness pouring in to his ears. The voice came from behind him. He turned, and the world, which had been resuming its ordinary dimensions, stopped again.

He saw the sweetest creature again looking at him with the most innocent pair of eyes.

If there was an orchestra of musicians, this would have been the loudest symphony in the history of music – just that it will not be a jarring and vexing one but would be the most harmonious ensemble to have ever been put together.

She was indicating towards her friend sitting in the front bench who was ready with a notebook and wearing an expression of exasperation and disbelief.

Thereafter, Divyankit followed her dream girl wherever she went: to the canteen, the library, the students’ union room and literally everything under the Sun and inside the university campus.

It became so obvious that even the Professors started to take note.

One day after class, as the queen of his heart was going towards the library, Divyankit followed her but instead of the library she went in to the girls’ restroom, with him following suit.

“Don’t you feel ashamed following me around” She suddenly turned and confronted him.

Her face surprisingly did not show anger but the silent disappointment of a very patient person. Suddenly taken aback, Divyankit was retreating back. That’s when she moved and blocked his path.

“I have been noticing this strange behaviour from you since the last few days. Now it has become a joke in the university and I am getting a bad reputation for this” Divyankit noticed big drop of tears accumulating in her beautiful Kohl lined eye threatening to burst open and along with it unleash the hidden emotions that she had accumulated against him.

He could not let it happen.

“I am so very sorry” Said Divyankit, now really apologetic after suddenly becoming aware of the consequences of his erratic behaviour on the girl’s reputation. “I never meant to hurt you. If you could give me a chance, I could explain it to you”. Said Divyankit, now really feeling bad for the girl.

“Is this boy troubling you, Archana” Said one of her friends who was coming out of the restroom, looking at Divyankit suspiciously.

“Ah, so Archana is her name” Said Divyankit to himself. Now mighty pleased to put a name to the face.

“No, no. its alright Deepa. We were just talking about the notes for the political science lecture. It’s nothing” Archana immediately rescued the situation before it could get out of hand even as Divyankit’s puppy face and constant stare was not helping the situation either.

“Come, let us go to the canteen. You will get yourself lynched here”. Said Archana, half dragging and half carrying him out of the place.

In the canteen, they sat in a corner and it was time for Archana to put things in to perspective and drill some sense to his ‘thick skull’.

“You must understand that you cannot follow me around like this”. Started Archana. Seeing him again getting dreamy eyed, she decided to be firm. “Look, I come from a conservative Brahmin family and its with lot of difficulties that I have convinced my parents to allow me to study for masters. I want to prepare for civils and become an IAS officer which has always been my dream.” She blurted out all at once and paused to catch her breath.

By now Divyankit had come to his own senses and was beginning to understand the gravity of the situation. But he was also helpless. Helplessly in love with Archna. There was no rhyme or reason for what he was feeling but he could not shake it off just like that.

“You look like someone from a good family and I am sure you have your own career ambition. Please focus on that and let us go our own separate way”. Said Archana decisively.

“I can help you with your civils preparation. Infact I am much ahead in my own preparation and find it to be very easy”. Blurted out Divyankit almost in a matter-of-fact manner.

This was his last salvo to salvage the relationship which was beginning to disintegrate even before it had formed.

Archana looked at the boy intently. He seemed like a decent boy. Was actually handsome & fair and had a boyish charm about him which was rather cute. She really liked him but feared that this will only fan his obsession, if at all he comes to know of it.

But the IAS preparation offer was also tempting.

This boy was a known scholar, a gold medalist of his college in graduation and it would be a good arrangement if he chooses to also help her with the preparation, thought Archana.

Reluctantly she agreed.

They agreed to meet after the classes in the library.

VII

Divyankit was far more brilliant and amazing in studies than what Archana had imagined. His childlike inquisitiveness and understanding of basic fundamentals and nuances of subjects amazed her. He not only had a penchant and flair for literature but also a good grip on History as a subject. What really made him unique and special is the point of view and perspective that he formed from both these subjects and how well he was able to use this to articulate and explain away all that was happening in the country and globally.

A true IAS material indeed, Archana thought.

The study session went on well and suddenly without realization, 6 months had passed.

One day while studying together, Divyankit was underlining some passages from the History book. Archana was in a playful mood and kept fidgeting with the pencil and stationaries around.

“Why did you keep following me like a stalker, Divyankit”? Archana suddenly asked in a serious tone.

Though it was meant as a playful prank meant to startle him, it stopped him right in his track. He looked at her intently, his face undergoing a thousand change – of surprise, discovery and hurt.

“It was because you were the most wonderful girl that I ever met in my life. The moment I saw you at the magazine shop, amidst the rain and the thunderstorm, my world seemed to have stopped spinning. It was as if you were the goddess that I had been waiting for all my life or for so many lives and as if my Moksha were waiting to happen at your hand”.

His passion and fervor surfacing and overflowing now, Divyankit started crying. “Don’t you feel the same way, Archana. Can’t you see the enormous love that I have for you – in my eyes, in my words and in my entire being. Don’t you feel a thing for me, Archna”.

Now he was inconsolable.

In all this, Archna felt a slight tug in her heart. How heartless of her, she thought, not to understand the true love of a man who has all along loved her with the purest of intention and with all his heart. It is not that she did not like him but kept him in abeyance in fear of her family and what the society might think. Seeing Divyankit’s emotional state, Archana also teared up. She wanted to hug him. Tell him that she loves him more than the world and would have preferred nothing better than him.

Instead, she just got up and left.

VIII

For the next 2 weeks both of them avoided each other. If suddenly per chance, they bumped in to each other or saw each other from the distance, both of their heartbeats raced and Archna’s face turns a crimson red while Divyankit could not help stop his smiles which widened to a grin.

Both of them were outrightly and hopelessly in love with each other.

What proceeded from there would fill half the chapters of any bestseller romantic novel. In classroom they will keep looking at each other till people frowned, hold hands under the table while they studied and tried to give each other small gifts without any reason or season.

As they neared the end of their final year and also the UPSC exams, the study hour extended. Archana got permission from her family to stay in the ladies’ hostel to study longer and use the library.

Post dinner walk used to be a romantic affair as both of them just held each other’s hand and took the long walk in the winding university road. Sometimes they will sit in the garden in silence hearing the nature, the sound of the crickets and their own heart beats.

One full moon night and as both of them were passing by the garden, Archna said “Divyankit, let’s sit in the garden in this beautiful full moon night and enjoy its bliss. We have not been able to sit here for a very long time due to the study pressure.” Divyankit agreed.

As they sat down, both started talking about their life, what they want to become, what would make them happy and feel fulfilled.

Then as suddenly as they had started talking, they stopped.

Silence fell.

Outside, the moon lit up the earth in a slightly mystical veil of soft light which made the moment magical. A patch of cloud floated across and suddenly the moon went out of sight, briefly.

A cloud moved across the moon. The garden went into brief, complete darkness.

And in that darkness, Archana began to sing.

She sang softly, almost to herself a song from Adina Megha, a popular Odia movie, sung by singer Nirmala Mishra.

It almost felt as a confession:

Jochona Luchana Dura Nila Gagane

Emana Manena Eyi Madhu Lagane

Jochona Luchana Luchana”

(The moonlight hides itself in the distant blue sky,

Yet the heart refuses to be still in this intoxicating moment…

The moonlight hides… and hides again.)

Mesemerised, Divyankit just closed his eye and let the melodious voice of Archana awash him with the emotion as he floated out in to reverie, with the moon playing hide and seek above.

Archana also got lost in the song and continued…

Bakula Aakule Jhure Sakale Aakale Jhare

Biraha Basa Ra Rachi

Sara Nisi Abhisa Re

Nila Kanei Rahe Chahein

Niti Niti Maune

Jochona Luchana Dura Nila Gagane

Jochana Luchana Luchana

(The Bakul flowers ache and fall in longing,

Morning and evening both seem touched by absence,

Love writes itself in the language of separation,

Through the long, silent night of yearning.)

A drop of water fell on Divyankit’s cheek.

Suddenly awakened from his deep reverie, he looked up and saw tear welling up and tracing down her face in the restored moonlight, her eyes bright and far away.

“Promise me Divyankit. You will never leave me. You will always be there for me. There will be no separation in our story. We will love, live and be with each other till eternity. Promise me…” Said Archana fervently and with a passion which was so unlike her.

Divyankit hugged her close and tightly. “Of course, my dear. Of course,”. He whispered.

He meant it.

He meant every syllable.

He had never meant anything more.

Above them the moon came out from behind its cloud. A temple bell marked the hour, and the night continued its long, indifferent passage through the sleeping city.

IX

Time flew like a fading song one hears on a full moon day.

Finally, the day of the UPSC Prelims examination came. Both Divyankit and Archana had a solid preparation and with everyone’s blessings, excelled at the examination. The result was out in the next 20 days.

Both of them had cracked the prelims. Everyone was elated and excited.

Except one person. Manoj, the university bully.

Since the day Divyankit gave him a sound thrashing, he has had a complete loss of face and his prestige as a strongman lay in tatters.

What made the matter worse was that Manoj was the cousin of Archana.

He really hated both of them going around in campus. What was also very much unbearable was how come a girl from a “Sasan Brahmin” (group of Brahmin who were given land by Kings and were the highest custodian of Vedic learning & rituals of Lord Jagannath) family can go around with a lowly “Chasha” (peasant family). He really wanted to give Divyankit a good thrashing to take revenge and also dissuade him from roaming around with his cousin but was afraid of a repetition of his previous experience and the public humiliation that will follow.

So, he did what every other weak and cowardly fellow does.

He decided to spill the bean with his Aunt & Uncle on how their daughter was going around with a low cast man and how it is bringing disrepute to the family and the entire “Sasan Brahmin” clan. This infuriated both the parents and also humiliated them to even think of being touched and nay even ‘violated’ by the “mleccha” (outcast)…

Chi chi chi… What shame and embarrassment.

Since her father was an influential man with high connection in the government and with who’s who of the society because of his position, they decided that this boy must be punished and made an example so that none should dare to even come close to their daughter.

Divyankit and Archana would not forget the evening of 23rd June.

“Where is that mleccha who dared to vitiate my daughter. Come out, if you dare to” Shouted Mrs. Tripathy on top of her voice, gathering the occupants of the gents’ hostel.

She was accompanied by the rowdy gang of Manoj who had made all arrangement to ensure Divyankit gets a sound thrashing.

Hearing the commotion, Divyankit came out of the hostel unaware that it was all centered around him.

Manoj indicated Divyankit to his Aunt.

Even before her Mother could react, Archana’s father rushed towards him.

The slap was loud and clear.

Divyankit was more surprised than hurt.

“How dare you roam around with Archana. Do you even know who she is? The high caste that she belongs to? The society she comes from?” the barrage from her father continued.

Some of Divyankit’s friends came to pick him up and few looked at the elderly gentleman angrily.

Manoj, as if waiting on a cue, latched on to this opportunity.

“They are going to hit uncle. Come on you all, let us show them their real place” Roared Manoj as his army of followers surged forward.

Manoj lifted his hockey stick to hit Divyankit who ducked and saved himself. He swung around and let the impact of his big fist land squarely on Manoj’s stomach.

Manoj writhed in pain and reeled backwards.

By then, Divyankit’s friends, now in large numbers, tackled and overpowered Manoj’s gang. Seeing their leader in pain and a pitiable condition along with their own battered state, they decided to retreat back and left with their tail between the legs.

Drama ensued in the following weeks.

Archana was house arrested and not allowed to go to the university.

Divyankit and friends were warned by the university not to indulge in such anti-social activities. What got most affected was Archana and Divyankit’s joint study for the UPSC.

In all this Manoj was seething with white rage. The pain and the pure shame of humiliation had completely changed him in to a mad and raving man.

A man who was thirsty for the blood of Divyankit. His entire identity and honour now laid in the dust even as his gang and followers forsook him. He had become a laughing stock in his circle and the mere mention of him and the famed duel invited much mirth, derision & laughter.

So, he hatched a sinister plan.

A plan which will be decisive in establishing who the real man was.

X

In the meanwhile, the two lovers became forlorn, morose and went through emotional turmoil even as they were forbidden to meet each other.

He moved through the hostel’s days mechanically across lectures, meals and the pretense to study. His books lay open but the words held no meaning to him. At night he laid awake and thought of her hand over his on the library table, and the weight of her against his chest in the garden, and the song she had sung in the dark when the cloud crossed the moon, and the promise she had asked for and the promise he had given without hesitation or reservation or the smallest shadow of doubt.

Hearing of the incident, Prafula Babu and Divyankit’s brother both travelled to Bhubaneswar to meet him. Prafulla Babu exhorted him to come back to the village as his life may be danger. After much cajoling, coaxing and convincing by Divyankit’s friends, was his father persuaded to allow him to stay on to prepare for his mains exams.

It was true that his life was in danger, thought Divyankit.

Indeed, what he held dearer than his life, Archana, was in danger. And what was more in danger was their love, tender feeling for each other and their beautiful relationship.

He somehow had to talk to her.

He knew that Archana would be distraught about his wellbeing. He also wanted to know if she was alright. And to reaffirm his love for her and assure her that he was always with her.

“But how to do it? Who will do it”? thought Divyankit.

That’s when he suddenly recalled Archana’s close friend - Deepa.

So, he wrote a long letter to Archana assuring her of his wellbeing and hoping to god that she was alright. He fervently requested her, as well as mere words will carry, to meet him near the magazine shop, the next day at 5 pm. He gave the letter to Deepa.

Manoj had been busy.

He had gotten wind from one of his trusted sources who overheard the conversation between Deepa & Manoj, as luck would have it. The heavy Jeep in his house, which was parked since years after a severe accident, was suddenly becoming Manoj’s centre of attraction.

It was time to press the Jeep in to service.

To a bloody action.

XI

She arrived in twilight.

5 pm was a time when the magazine shop generally becomes crowded with customers and students from the university visiting it. Divyankit reached 10 mins before and waited for Archana.

That’s when he saw her.

That simple girl, wearing a chudidaar, with hair clipped together in a simple knot at the nape of her neck with few soft strands escaping. With the Sun in her back, this was giving her an aura unimagined.

As she came nearby, he saw her eyes were swollen as if she has been crying a lot. There was tale tell signs of bruises near her neck. Divyankit could look no more.

“Have you been waiting for a very long time”.

Again, the honey dipped sweet mellifluous voice. The melt in the ear melody and the irresistible symphony. Divyankit pulled himself out before he slipped back to one of his trances.

That was Archana and the effect that she had on him.

“How have you been my dear”? Asked Divyankit affectionately. “How pale you have become. Are you missing me” he said half-jokingly.

Archana burst out crying.

She cried without covering her face. He didn't say anything. He put his arms around her and she let him, right there on the road outside the magazine stall, with the students and the rickshaw pullers and the whole ordinary afternoon as witness.

Her parents have been unforgiving.

Venting out their anger and frustration at her ‘outrageous and indecent’ act, they were relentless in their onslaught of abuse – verbal and physical. It felt as if it has had been already a decade that she met Divyankit. And when she finally did, hearing his voice, his loving concern and the comforting presence was enough to bridge the dam of emotions that she had been holding for so long. She had been steadfast during the dark time – to not cry and shed a single drop of tears so as not to give them the pleasure of having broken her and in effect the love that Divyankit and she shared.

“Divyankit, please take me away from here. From all the pain, trials and tribulations. To a place where I could be with you and only you” Archana said amidst tears streaming her face.

“I will dear, definitely I will take you away. I promise”. Said Divyankit as he stroked her hair and took her in his embrace.

As they sat down in the open-air cafeteria by the magazine shop, they discussed about life. How it has turned so strange for them, remembered how they met first and of all the tomfoolery that Divyankit ended up doing, of their walk after dinner, the sitting together in silence in the park in the moon lit nights, that immemorable song.

They smiled, they laughed and they cried.

Two-star stuck lover, deeply and madly in love. Cruelly separated by the society, its norms and the strange rules made by humans to keep humans away from each other.

“Let us meet here exactly after a week. You come prepared and we will go off to my friend’s place in Calcutta. There I will find a job and we can lead a happy and peaceful life” Said Divyankit, his voice now filled with conviction and determination.

Archana looked up and smiled.

She knew that now everything is going to be fine because her lover said so.

It was almost dark and much past the time that Archana had committed to her family. She had come away with Deepa with the pretense of going to her house for study.

“I must leave. It’s getting late”. Said Archana urgently. As she got up to leave, she stumbled a bit, about to fall.

Divyankit caught her mid-way.

That moment froze for both of them and eternity stopped at that point in the honor of two lovers.

XII

“I will wait for you to come and not leave this place for eternity till you come”. Shouted Divyankit as Archana looked at crossing the road. She stopped midway and gave him a sweet smile.

That smile. Soft and open. The smile that holds nothing back. The smile of someone at peace with a decision.

At that moment Manoj’s Jeep sped towards them.

Manoj’s focus was only on Divyankit trying to cross the road...

There was a loud thud, then the scream and suddenly a large crowd.

Divyankit got thrown off the road side. When he opened his eyes, he saw Archana nowhere.

Then there were loud screams as he forced himself through the crowd.

He pushed through.

With urgency, with desperation, with hope. The world had been stripped of everything except the need to reach her.

He reached the middle of the human circle.

A lovely pair of Kohl lined eyes were looking for him here & there from where they lay on the road, they finally found his face and stayed.

Stayed with the whole force of her; all the mornings in the library and the evenings under the neem trees, the full moon and the university garden, the song she had sung in the dark garden when the cloud crossed the moon and the world went briefly away — stayed, and looked at him from a distance that was immeasurable, and said what could not be said any other way.

They stayed there, staring from the point of no return but too reluctant to let go.

And then, slowly, the way the moonlight goes behind a cloud, began to leave.

Divyankit slumped on to the ground. All vision a blur and all sounds a garble, holding Archana’s hand.

He held it the way someone holds the last page of a good book you are not ready to finish & let go.

The way you hold something you already know is gone and cannot stop holding anyway, because holding is the only thing remaining that belongs to you.

He did not call for help. He did not speak. There was nothing in him that language could convey.

Manoj was crying with loud sobs with his head buried between his legs.

Even as the distant transistor played on…

Jochona Luchana Dura Nila Gagane

Emana Manena Eyi Madhu Lagane

Jochona Luchana... Luchana…


Thursday, May 7, 2026

The Elder Son

 The morning was slowly slipping through Amina’s finger like water.

She had found Imran’s shoes under the kitchen shelf, his schoolbooks hid behind the sofa and an untouched glass of milk colling on the table, a thin film forming on top. Razia's uniform was still unironed. The rice from last night was still in the pot, clinging stubbornly to the sides…

Monday invariably brought in its wake an utter chaos for Amina as she tries to balance everything like the Dasabhuja Durga Maa. And somewhere in this two-room house was Siraj, who was supposed to have swept the floor an hour ago.

“Siraj” … “Siraj. Where has this stupid boy now disappeared to”. Muttered Amina as she hurried around the house trying to bring order to chaos. Her voice was swallowed by Javed's loud snoring from the adjacent bedroom.

She never expected this life. Even after eight years of marriage with Javed.

Her father had been a DSP of police, the first from their community. Her grandfather, Sattar Sahib, had served as Peshkaar in the old royal court before the British took over and made him a revenue officer. They had lived in a sprawling bungalow in Cuttack which was gifted by the erstwhile Raja. A sprawling bungalow with long verandahs, deep ponds ringed with jasmine, a garden with fruit trees ranging from the ordinary mango and guava to varieties Amina had never seen anywhere else. Her grandfather had later given her mother an adjacent plot to build on, when her father was posted away for years at a stretch and the children needed to be settled in one city for school. That house too was beautiful. There was a kitchen garden where the seasonal vegetables grew, and a backyard full of custard apples, guava and Mango that fell into the grass all the time.

As a girl Amina had climbed the mango trees in the back garden and read her textbooks sitting in their shade without a care in the world.

Her grandfather was the one who kindled her love for science by encouraging her to explore everything that appeared mysterious in nature. Why does this happen? What makes that move? She had chased answers like other children chased kites. Her father attended all her annual day where her name was invariably called for first prize in Science Subject. Through her interest and determination, Amina completed bachelor of Science from the local college – a rare feat for a girl from her community. Given her interest in teaching, she went on to complete B.Ed – a fact which was a matter of pride for her family members.

In 1950s India, being a girl who is highly educated and qualified belonging to her community was a sure recipe for disaster from a matrimony perspective. It was difficult for her parents to find a suitable groom for her in their community.

What they eventually found was Javed.

Javed was the son of a Zamindar from the nearby villages. He was good looking and had a government job; a most sought-after groom in the marriage market. However, Javed was looking for a wife who will also be a service holder (a popular term for being in a job). So, the match was hooked, cooked and booked as both the pair were married off and set forth to deal with life’s journey and what came along with it - the joys, discovery and travails notwithstanding.

What Javed had not calculated was the mess of it. The children arriving within three years, the school which took most of Amina’s day time, the cooking and the cleaning and the mountain of small work that waited for her at every hour of the day. This led to quite a bit of ugly scene and not so nice arguments between the husband & wife which proved one point clear as the daylight – Javed’s inability in helping in any way his wife in her daily chore. This arose part from incompetence and part from the lethargy that privilege helped seep through.

In the whole conundrum, Amina’s father-in-law stepped in as a ray of- hope in what was otherwise a bleak scenario stripped off any silver lining. Due to his stature as a Zamindar, he convinced poor families to send their kids as domestic help to Amina’s house, in rerun for a ‘handsome salary’ of Rs 80 per month. The househelp who came in were barely five to six years older than her own kid, a scenario which may appear hilarious and yet was tragic but was the only practical solution which emerged at that point in time and Amina was not complaining either.

The solution came with its agony & pangs. The first boy had cried for a week and run away. So had the second. The third had lasted longer before he was also engulfed by homesickness forcing him to flee.

By now, Amina joked to her friends that the line of her former house-helps would stretch a kilometer from her lane to the main road.

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But the recent one, Siraj, was different from the rest.

He kept the children engaged and looked after them like an elder brother. He was obedient, respectful and consistent, a quality which endeared him to Amina and his family. The one who was the happiest was Javed. He was relieved that now he will not have to bear the brunt of Amina’s taunt for not helping her with household chores and looking after the kids. Coming from a privileged background, he was unaccustomed to the drudgery of household works. He never anticipated that married life will bring in so much responsibility and hardships. One who loves the cool weather that rain brings in should also be ready to deal with the mud and the messiness that comes with it. Amina would think most of the times but will not utter it given the harmony that women are expected to maintain disproportionately in their matrimony.

Siraj, however, settled down quite well in a few weeks’ time. What Siraj truly meant for them, came three months after he arrived, on an ordinary Sunday.

Amina’s daughter Razia was playing with Smita, the daughter of the Marwari family next door. Smita had a beautiful doll which Razia adored but Smita will not have her anywhere close. That Sunday, Razia decided to take things to her own hand to free the doll from the clutches of the ‘evil queen’ Smita. What ensued was the cutest fight ever but transcended to loud shrieks and cries from the children, a common occurrence which was ignored by both kids’ parents.

However, this time, the elder brother of Smita, Kishor, decided to step in and was trying to pull his weights literally, given his seniority.

Siraj has been lying on a palm leaf mat on the verandah watching the ‘cute’ duel with glee. However, he became suddenly uneasy with the appearance of Kishor who has now started to physically push out Razia forcibly.

“Don’t you dare to touch my sister”. Roared Siraj as he caught Razia from falling with one hand while deflecting the next move by Kishor.

Amina was cooking breakfast for the family while simultaneously trying to clean up the house, soak clothes for washing and warding off lecherous advances by Javed who always seemed to be in the mood on Sundays and holidays.

Hearing the cries of Razia followed by Siraj, Amina dropped the cooking spoon which landed down with a thud on the ground as she rushed outside to see what is happening.

There on the ground lay Kishor, still surprised but quick enough to understand it as a genuine assault even as Siraj towered over him with Razia behind him. “How dare you touch my sister and push her to the ground”? Thundered Siraj with the authority and command of an elder brother.

Kishor, who had evidently not expected a servant boy to say anything at all, least of all in that voice, stumbled backward and sat down hard in the dust. Got up. Dusted himself. Said nothing and Left.

It was as atrocious, as bizarre and as surreal as it could get but Amina could not help but notice the adorable demonstration of genuine love, affection and care that Siraj demonstrated in a moment that mattered, at least for her.

Siraj carried Imran on his hips as Razia held on to his hand proudly as they approached her. For a brief moment that day. Amina forgot about her chaotic life, the drudgery that came with it and a husband who was unloving and uncaring and the bleakness of it all. She embraced her three children. That moment she was a proud mother of her children and today her elder son had stood up like a man to confront all that is unjust, unfair and partisan.

That evening Siraj ate two plates of rice and asked if there was more.

He had stopped crying in the mornings a month ago but after that Sunday something had settled in him and he came in fully, the way children do when they finally believe they are allowed.

He had found his home. And if she was honest with herself, so had Amina.

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"The boy has simply vanished into thin air." Javed collapsed onto the sofa, wiping his face with the back of his hand. "I checked the bus stand, the railway station, even the truck depot but nothing. Ye mere Maula, tu meri madad kar. If Abbaji comes to know, he will grill me alive. Siraj's father is a known goonda and that mother of his… tauba, tauba… the woman can raise a storm over a fallen leaf." He had gone quite pale. Amina found this faintly funny but brought him water anyway, as a dutiful wife is expected to do.

"Phone for you." The Marwari Sethani's voice came sharp over the wall. Theirs was one of perhaps three telephones in the entire lane, a fact she ensured nobody forgot alongwith her other prized possessions - colour TV, VHS and telephone all under one roof.

The voice on the line was Abba Ji's, feeble and weak. “Come quickly. Both of you”. The line disconnected on the other side.

They packed in twenty minutes and caught the last bus to the village.

The bus smelled of diesel and tired bodies of people travelling not for joy but out of necessity. Somewhere in its wake, Amina found herself thinking of her Vidaai, that first trip into her husband's world, the shock of arriving from her father's grand house and well-manicured lawn into all this dust and chaos. She had come to understand that some distances were not measured in kilometers.

They reached the village after dark. Irfan was waiting and it was a good thing too as an angry crowd had gathered near the bus stand, pressing around Javed with questions about Siraj. Irfan was a well built and a hefty man. He pushed a clear path through and got them to the ancestral house without incident.

Hazra Bi embraced Javed and her grandchildren, then said to the room at large, carefully not looking at Amina, that in her time women had ten children and still managed their homes properly, that today's modern girls believed a government job absolved them of every other duty. “Tauba tauba”…

“Siraj’s mother, Asma, has been sitting on a hunger strike at the market place and saying that she will only eat from her son’s hand” Said Abba Ji visibly irritated and frustrated. “you rest up Beta. You people had a long journey and must be very tired. We will talk in the morning” Said Abba Ji even as he affectionately patted Amina on the head like a father. He admired his daughter in law and was very happy when the alliance was made. To have a graduate daughter in law is something only few people are blessed with, he will think, an enthusiasm which was not shared equally by his wife.

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Before the Fajar azaan, while everyone slept, Amina slipped out in her burkha and took the long way through the mango orchard to the market square. Asma had set up a befitting spectacle: on a charpai, her arms were raised and she was wailing loud enough to ensure that her voice carried through the market. “Mere bacche ko le gaye, pata nahi kahan hai, haaye, in logon ka gairat ho, Allah inko kabhi maaf na kare” Around her a motley crowd had assembled: some genuinely worried, some came for the fun and some, who were like her, were there to see the performance that she was putting up. After a certain point of time, to Amina, she started resembling like her mother-in-law.

“This woman, Asma… such a drama. We all know where the Son had disappeared and what plan she has…” her voice got lost as the crowd reacted sharply to another of the antics of Asma.

Amina walked back through the orchard in the early light, the dew cold underfoot. She had heard enough to know that something evil & insidious is at play.

The next morning, over breakfast on the Dastarkhan, Javed proposed returning to the city. His friend Manoj was the DSP there and could help in the search immensely. He said this with careful phrasing and due rehearsal because Abba Ji still had, even now, the ability to make him feel like twelve years old. After giving it some thought, Abba Ji nodded and said “I think you are right Javed. Your presence at the city will be more fruitful than here. Don’t worry about the people here. I will handle them”. He said with some degree of conviction.

They left that afternoon. As the bus pulled away Amina watched Abba Ji's figure shrink at the gate, even as he waved at them. She felt particularly sad as she understood the sorrow of leaving someone behind who deserves better than what life has handed them. Javed watched his village disappear from the window.

They reached the city late and found a rickshaw home to the two-roomed house where it all started.

From the next day, Javed took off along with Amina to start searching for Siraj. This was part owing to the love and affection for the boy but mostly due to the fear of official action as Siraj was still a minor and having disappeared from their care, they could be held accountable and it may have adverse effect on their job.

What also helped was that the city DSP, Manoj, was a school friend of Javed and when Javed reached out to him, he was very supportive and assured all assistance.

They split the search in 2 parts: Javed would work with his friend, DSP Manoj to locate the boy with the help of the police team and Amina with her brother would try to scour the neighborhood to find out the whereabouts of Siraj. Luckily, they had a photo of Siraj which was clicked when the family went off for a photoshoot in the local photo studio recently. As Siraj had become close to them as a family, they also invited him to join them for the photo. In the photograph, he stood slightly apart from the others, not quite sure of his place in the frame, but present.

The search went on for almost a week with the city police leaving no stone unturned to find the servant boy of Manoj Sahib’s friend. They rounded up all suspects from their list including child lifters, ex-felons, small time thieves and others with some criminal record. The search was so intense with police vehicle coming 2 – 3 times a day to pick up Javed that it led the neighbors to start developing respect for both Amina & her husband for their ‘higher’ connection in the police hierarchy.

The search of Amina with her brother also did not yield much results. The people in the neighborhood were sympathetic of their situation but could not help much beyond that. Looking at the photo, many thought that it was Amina’s kid that had disappeared but were not very supportive when they came to know that it was their servant that they were looking for. Some of them even showed utter surprise to see Amina getting so concerned about a servant disappearing. “These vagabonds roam around for few days and when they become tired & hungry, they all come back, eventually”. Was how an old grumpy lady summed up.

Nobody had seen him.

While Javed was anxious about this event snowballing and affecting his job, Amina was much more saddened in way a mother will understand. She missed the reassuring presence and persona of Siraj who, like an elder son always stood by her and was also a very loving brother to her children.

On the eighth evening, tired and worn out, more mentally than physically, Amina asked Javed to get some food from the local Muslim hotel Ajmatiya.

Ajmatiya was the old hotel on the main road, run by the third generation of the Habib brothers, famous in the Sultan Bazar area for its meat dishes. Siraj had loved the place. In his free hours he would wander over just to stand near the kitchen and talk to the staff. Maybe it was his way of socializing and fend off loneliness. Amina didn't think of this when she sent Javed.

She was just tired and hungry.

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Javed pushed through the door of Ajmatiya and joined the short queue at the counter. It was the evening rush; a few regulars seated at the heavy wooden tables, the smell of mutton shorba and something caramelising in the back, the low murmur of conversation. He gave his order and stood waiting, half-watching the door to the kitchen for his order.

The door swung open.

Out came a boy carrying a tray, moving with the trained ease of someone who knew the room. Blackened hands, a smear of coal dust across one cheek, wearing working clothes with his head down and concentrating on the tray.

Then the boy looked up.

Javed felt the recognition hit him like a nuclear missile. The world seemed to go briefly spinning in his head. There was Siraj. His Siraj, their missing Siraj, the boy whose disappearance had cost Javed a week of sleep and a humiliating number of visits to Manoj's office. Here, in an apron, carrying food to someone else's table.

"Siraj!"

The word came out louder than he really wanted with every head in the room turning towards him. Siraj stopped. For one moment the boy looked at Javed indifferently with no guilt & surprise. It was an expression of a person who may have been found but had not been exactly hiding.

Javed covered the distance between them in four steps and grabbed the boy by the arm.

What happened next went fast like a blur. The tray went flying. The two men from the kitchen came through the door. A chair scraped. One of the Habib brothers, the heavyset one who managed the floor, stepped between Javed and Siraj with his arms out, trying to pacify him in low voice that Javed could not hear over the rage in his head. Javed tried to go around him. He couldn't and swung around and caught an elbow somewhere on his face or perhaps he walked into the wall, later he couldn't be sure. Suddenly, he found himself outside on the pavement, with a cut lip and a torn shirt and the door closing behind him. The Marwari Seth from the lane was passing by on his evening walk and saw him.

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Amina heard the commotion from inside and came out to the verandah to find Javed at the gate with the Seth holding his elbow, blood at the corner of his mouth. Before she could get to him, he pulled his arm free and came inside walking past her. Then he turned and that’s when it all came out.

“This is your doing. You gave him too much liberty. You encouraged him. You treated him like one of the family and now look… look at what is happening now.”

She stood there and did not say anything. She had learned this over the years, that certain things were like monsoon squalls: they came, they went, and the only thing to do was stand still and wait them out, because whatever you did in the middle of them only made things worse.

She thanked the Seth, who left with a sympathetic look at Javed and a disappointed one at Amina.

Then she sat down.

Siraj had been at Ajmatiya all along. He had been working of his own choosing and full knowledge of the hotel staffs. He had not been kidnapped or lost or in any danger. He had simply left, and gone somewhere he wanted to go, and continued to exist cheerfully a fifteen-minute walk from their house while they turned the city upside down for him.

She did not know, sitting there, whether what she felt was anger or relief or something in the region of grief which could not be named. She lay down and stared at the ceiling.

That night she did not sleep.

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The next day she took leave from the school after the farcical incidence of the previous day and found that Javed was also languishing at home. Unable to bear his sight, she took a rickshaw and bundled her kids on to it heading towards her parents’ home.

Getting back to one’s parents’ house is the most cherished and treasured moment for any girl, especially after marriage. Amina was not someone who was known to run to her parents’ house at the slight sign of hardship. However, this incident proved to be beyond her tolerance and patience and she needed a good break from all the chaos and confusion.

She does not know for how many days and nights she slept. Her mother would try to wake her up and feed her even as she stayed in a dazed condition. Again, she will slip back to the stupor, a dreamless sleep where you find yourself in a twilight zone, swinging between day & night, between clarity and confusion and between trust & betrayal.

“Amina, beta Amina… Wake up Beta, see Habib Sahib is here to see you”. Amina’ s mother voice seemed to echo and come as if from a far-off valley. Giving a faint smile in her dream, Amina changed side and went off to her sleep. Only after a strong jolt and violent shaking by her mother that Amina finally came to her senses.

Putting a Dupatta on her head, Amina walked to her father’s study where Habib Sahib, the owner of Ajmatiya hotel was sitting.

Seeing her come, he got up courteously and said half embarrassingly “Bitiya, sorry to trouble you and wake you up. I really wanted to see you and explain things so that you should not count me as guilty as I will have to show this face to Sattar Sahib in the Yome – Qayamat” He said almost embarrassingly and full of regret.

Keeping his eyes low, Habib Sahib continued, “Beta, I never wanted to take the fool Siraj as one of my staff. But what can I do, my sons would not have any of it. The staffs also know him and have gotten fond of him. I was helpless,” Said a visibly dejected Habib Sahib.

“On top, Siraj’s father came and threatened us that if we did not give him money, he will let you know that we have lured Siraj to join our hotel. Its only when I came to know that they have created ruckus in the village and also received confirmed news that they were trying to extort good amount f money from you Bitiya, that I said enough is enough and came running to you” Habib Sahib was now visibly shaken and disturbed, perhaps in the apparent guilt of being the culprit who has set off this unfortunate chain of events, started to shed some unabashed tears.

“On top of that, my wretched blood had also the temerity to mishandle Damad Ji... Chi, Chi, Chi”…. He started crying uncontrollably.

Amina’s father comforted him but he was beyond consolation. Izzat and Waqar (dignity & honor) meant a lot to people of his generation and he could not bear to see the same now run down to the ground due to the unfolding events.

That evening she took a rickshaw home.

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The rickshaw came down the main road and slowed turning into the lane. Ajmatiya was on the corner, its doors were open and the evening smell of coal smoke and cooking mutton drifting out into the dusk.

And there was Siraj.

He was crouched at the side of the building beside the coal stove, extracting the spent pieces, sorting the usable coal with the same complete and serious attention he had once given to every task in her house. His hands and face were black with it as he was utterly absorbed in it.

He looked up as the rickshaw approached. Saw her.

His face opened into a smile: a wide, innocent, a flash of white in a coal-dark face. It was not the smile of a boy who knew he had caused trouble. It was the smile of someone who was simply glad to see her, and wanted her to know something without having the words for it; beyond the deviousness and plotting of his parents, beyond the accusations and allegations that everyone was heaping on him he wanted her to know…

“I am all right, Mother. I found the place I was always looking for. Don't be angry with me.”

Amina looked at him.

She felt the months of his presence in her house, the early morning crying, the doll fight, the two plates of rice, the stories about his village told while he swept; and she felt them pass through her without the sharp edge of grief she had expected.

He had not been hers to keep. He had been, for a little while, exactly what she needed, and she had been, she hoped, something of the same for him. It was enough. It was beautiful and as with every beautiful thing, it must come to an end.

She gave him the smallest nod. Just enough. Then she turned back to her children.

Imran had fallen asleep against her arm. Razia was watching the lane go by with her serious eyes. Amina tucked a loose lock of hair back from her daughter's face and held her close.

She thought about Javed. He would be home already, probably, sitting in the dim of the bedroom with his injured face and his bruised pride and the particular sullenness of a man who knows, somewhere, that he was wrong. She thought about the door she had closed so long ago and whether it was too late to open it, and decided, in the way you decide small things sometimes in the back of a rickshaw, without fanfare, that it was not.

That nothing was too late for people who loved each other, started a life together for the love and now bonded together by their beautiful children. Now, no matter how imperfect their relationship has been, there is always time for new beginnings.

She would go home. She would make the dal he liked, the slow Friday one, with the proper tadka and the whole spices and the patience that the Ajmatiya cook had explained to Siraj, who had explained it to her. She would put the children to bed. And then, perhaps, for the first time in longer than she could clearly remember, she would sit down with her husband and actually talk to him.

The rickshaw moved on down the lane.